Reasons....

1. Reasons Why He and I are Incompatible:

• He's wishy-washy. I like to know where I stand, then stand firm
• He can't vocalize things. Elocution has always been my strong point.
• He tries to analyze and "help" me. I HATE that.
• He almost acts ashamed....He won't talk to HER about us. She doesn't know we're dating because he's trying very hard to keep it incognito.
• I'm not ready to date a preemie. He's gotta go on a mission and getting involved would cause drama.

2. Reasons Why I Like Him:

• He's so smart. I love intelligence.
• He's so sweet. Some of the things he says blow me away.
• We are both attracted to one another.
• He makes me laugh. REALLY laugh. I haven't laughed like that in ages.
• He is SO handsome. I LOVE his dimples
• His eyes make me melt. When he stares at me, I can feel my temperature rising.
• He's strong in the gospel and uses his Priesthood. I love that most about him.
• He's so creative and funny.
• He genuinely cares about me.

3. Reasons Why I Wish I Could Make this Work:

• I love to be around him
• I love spending time with him
• He makes me so happy
• He tries so hard to make me see myself as he sees me.
• He sees me in a completely different light than I see myself.
• He wants me to be happy
• He is a good, worthy member
• He's got such a strong personality
• We are such a great pair.
• He's HOT!

4. Things I'm Confused About:

• Why this is so complicated.
• Why I'm so worried about this.
• Why I care so much about something so stupid
• How childish this entire thing is.
• Why he can't just man up and tell Adrianna. Ultimately, that's the underlying crap.
• Where my life is going.
• What's going on with Chris Rollins

5. Things that Frustrate Me:

• Uncertainty and Insecurity
• The fact that this is so complicated
• That he can't just man up and talk to her
• That he treats me like we're dating, then tells me that it isn't serious
• That I realized that I've got no idea where my life is headed or what I want any more
• The fact that I'm starting to wonder if I really did just come here to get married.
• The fact that I wonder what would happen if I were to get married right now.
• The fact that I'm actually wondering about stupid things like that.
• The fact that all of this is probably preventable

Am I bringing this upon myself? Ugh. Probably.