Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I like new ideas!

I've been following a lot of blogs lately, so I'm going to do a round of fives...

FIVE CONFESSIONS...
1. I am SO addicted to caffeine that it frightens me sometimes.
2. When I'm hanging out with some of the Guys, I try to pretend that we're married...or at least imagine what it would be like if we were....I never do anything really, just sorta imagine it to myself.
3. I swear a LOT more than I ought to.
4. I have a LONNNNNG way to go, but I am bound, set and determined to get married in the Temple.
5. I want to have a lot of kids, but I'm terrified of messing them up.

FIVE FAVORITES
1. Stars
2. Rain...singing in it, dancing in it, running around like mad in it...
3. Lilies of almost every kind
4. Hugs
5. Singing

FIVE PET PEEVES
1. People that think that one child is a handful...and put him/her on a leash
2. Rude people of any sort
3. People that completely disregard or ignore me when I'm doing my job....UGH how annoying!
4. People that shout at their crying children and yank them by the arm...CPS!!!!!!!
5. The fact that people don't spay/neuter their animals and then dump the newborn puppies or kittens...IRRESPONSIBLE!!!!!!!

FIVE FEARS
1. Dying old and alone
2. Losing my mind
3. Making left turns!!!
4. People I love getting hurt
5. Being bitten/stung by something venomous that will REALLLLLLY hurt

FIVE THINGS I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR
1. My family
2. My religion, and my faith
3. The Atonement
4. Temples, and the work done therein
5. My friends

FIVE GOALS FOR THE FUTURE
1. Graduate college (this is a MUST!)
2. Get a Temple marriage (and continue on in the faith for-ev-errrrrr)
3. Finally get a book published
4. Maintain a clean house, establish a reading and prayer habit...
5. become successful in what I really want to do...whatever THAT is.

FIVE FAVORITE NAMES
1. Kendrick Alexander
2. Hailey Elizabeth
3. Aubri Michelle
4. Kristine Annaleise
5. Logan Elise

FIVE LESSONS I'VE LEARNED THE HARD WAY...
1. Make sure the safety lock on your pepper spray is working...it makes REALLY bad body spray...trust me.
2. Follow the warnings of the Spirit EVERY time...the FIRST TIME.
3. Your parents? They really do know what they're talking about. Pinky swear.
4. Don't expect people to pay you back...ever. If you do, you'll grow up bitter and resentful, and you'll hate people eventually. Consider anything you "loan" a gift to them.
5. Always...ALWAYS give compliments where they're due, learn to bite your tongue when there's a harsh word on the tip of it, and NEVER say "I hate you" to ANYONE, no matter how much you think you do. Cuz you don't and you WILL regret it.
Your turn!!!!!!!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

posted on Facebook after many hurtful comments were made regarding my move...

Well. Further Clarification is in order, mainly because of how rude people have been regarding my moving.
It's not any of their business, but I don't want people to talk about me unless they've got the whole story first.
1. I am moving to Anaheim, California on May 12th.
2. It's because I have a job up there.
3. It's with ADT Home Security systems, and I will be selling door-to-door
4. They'll be paying for me to move up there, as well as my apartment.
5. It's a summer job, meaning I will unfortunately be moving back to Arizona in August.
6. More than likely, I will be returning to EAC in the fall. That's one good thing about coming back.
7. I want to spend a semester or two there, and then go to BYU-I.
Now, if it's all the same to you guys, I'd appreciate it if you were either supportive of my choices, or that you would just keep your mouths shut about it. Simply put, I will not tolerate being spoken to condescendingly. I am not a flake, and I have gone about this prayerfully and I don't want the feelings I've had regarding this move questioned. Yes, I have felt the assurance that I am doing the right thing. I've moved around quite a bit in the last year, admittedly, and to someone who doesn't understand (or who won't listen to my reasonings), it looks like I can't keep my feet on the ground. It's really nobody's business but my own, and I would absolutely LOVE to not have to explain myself to every person that I encounter.
To sum things up,
If I haven't told you about it, it's either because I haven't gotten to it yet,
I don't WANT to tell you because I know that you'll be negative,
or because I don't feel the need to explain myself to you.
Thanks for reading, please forgive me if I've offended you, and please understand my reasoning and logic.
Whew.

NOTE: Some of the comments that I received...notice that this is just a very few of them. Didn't know I meant enough to people for them to constantly criticize every single thing that I do.
"Wow you sure move around a lot."
"When are you coming back...cuz I know this won't last long."
"We've made bets...the longest we think you'll stay out there is 2 weeks"
"Man,when are you going to stop being a flake?"
"There's a boy there, huh? I bet that's why you're moving."
"Is the job the ONLY reason you're going? Bet there's a boy up there."
"You know, guys don't really like girls that are as indecisive. it's quite a turn off."
"All this moving around makes you look stupid."
"You'll never find a husband if you don't stay in one place long enough to meet people."
Thanks, to all who've made those comments. It makes me even more determined to leave you behind. And furthermore, I feel a small triumph knowing that I'm getting out of this horrible state and you're stuck. Jealous much? I know that a lot of the people that are the most cruel and least supportive are the ones that crave my feather-complex. I'm part Gypsy, Part RSS, and Part awesome. And you wish you could do what I do. XP
I know what I'm doing is right, as I said, and I'm not asking anyone for their input any more. I've got my own road, I'm proud of myself, and I know that I'm on the right path.

ON ANOTHER NOTE,
Thanks to everyone that really HAS been supportive. I really appreciate that you really do love and care about me. Words cannot express my gratitude to you. It helps me to have faith in myself. You guys are AWESOME!

Oh, my. I ought to change the title of my blog to "Thoghts of a Flake"

SO.
After much prayer, fasting, and counsel from people I trust, I decided not to go to Utah. I prayed that the Lord would provide, and had faith that he would.
Well.
I was offered a VERY promising job in California...Anaheim to be exact.
They're paying for my housing, my move up there, transportation...etc.
I am THRILLED. There is no other way to explain how I feel. Peaceful, happy...I know that this is what I am supposed to be doing.
I will be moving to California on either the 11th or the 12 of May, which is in two weeks.
I've never been so excited before in my life. And it's not anything that I've worried about. I have complete faith that this will work. I know it will!
I love the Gospel!!!!!