Thursday, February 26, 2009

Just for Schuyler.




This will be removed, lest a few sweet girls see their gifts too soon!!! The green is for Aimee, The Pink is for Sweet Libby, and I have yet to make the Rosey Pink for Sister Tolman. AND if ELDER TOLMAN would flipping tell me whether Jordan Lives with them, I think another scarf will be in order!! lol

Thursday, February 19, 2009

My Plan of Salvation Analogy

So I have been thinking a lot. And I came up with this in Institute a while back and now I have written it down to remember. This is my Uhhh, It's A Rock vs. Yay, I'm a Seed! Analogy. This is how I wrote it down and shared it with a good friend of mine.
Okay. Satan had a plan. It sounded pretty good, right? Well we'd all GET bodies. And we'd all end up back with Heavenly Father (theoretically, of course).
But we wouldn't grow or learn or sin or have any reason for repentance or the Atonement. And what would we be? The same as always.
rocks

Christ. He had such a beautiful plan...
We start out about the same as a rock.
But with Infinite potential. The ability to grow and be nurtured and become a HUGE Redwood.
Some of us might fall onto hard times and turn away from the sunlight. But if we fill our minds and spirits with the Holy Ghost, with the teachings of the Gospel, and turn towards the Sunlight of Christ, we will have infinite potential.
And trees don't just stop at the huge big leafy things with massive trunks either!
Oh, no.
They also produce seeds. which also have infinite potential. They have the ability to become other trees. And by doing so, the first tree, the once very small little seed...can be eternal.
And another thing that I love to liken to the Gospel is that with Plants, sometimes you forget to water or take them out into the sunlight.
And they start to wilt.
But you can almost always revive them. Just like the plants, if we don't feed our spirits, we start to wilt. But unlike plants, which sometimes die after too much time in the dry dark, we always have the opportunity to revive, if we just turn to the Lord.
I love that concept. It really is never too late.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

WELL CRAP. First off, whilst typing the title page, I managed to mess up my screen so I can't see the task bar. curse me for managing to do something I can't reverse. DANG IT!

AND second, the reason I decided to post was because, well, I have an issue again. Seems all I ever do is rant and rave but it's what happens.

I have a boyfriend. again. DANG IT!
I realized AFTER saying yes that I don't WANT to be in a relationship. not with him anyway. He's got nothing I want...He doesn't ever want to get married, hates kids, and despises religion. I like him a lot, but he and I are at different places in life. He's smart...INCREDIBLY smart, and has a wonderful sense of humor. I love to just sit next to him and talk. He really LISTENS to me. He tells me everything...bares his soul to me and I love it. It makes me feel so special and needed.

BUT.

He isn't Mormon...not in the least. I have NO problem dating nonmembers. I know I will ONLY marry in the temple, and besides....I'm WAY too young to start thinking marriage just yet. Not only does he not want to ever get married, but he doesn't think it's that important anyway. He'd rather me move in and just be his girlfriend than get married and potentially have a failed marriage. I think that is just about the most stupid thing I've ever heard. He thinks a party and a piece of paper is the definition of a wedding. I wanted to cry when he said that. He's not religious though so how could I explain it? I just changed the subject. It's not like I'd marry him anyway. There are other issues involved that I really don't feel like delving into over the internet. But it still really bothers me and he doesn't seem to get it.

In actuality, I don't want a boyfriend right now. I need to focus on my job right now. I need to prep myself for what's ahead. But I hate to lose his friendship and the companionship we share. I guess it's stupid but I both love and hate being single. Being single means that I can go out on a lot of dates, I can spend time with a lot of people, and I don't have to focus on one person. But it also means that sometimes I just gotta kick it solo. I don't MIND being alone, but I prefer to spend time with people. BUT. When I'm with a guy, I like being called, held, just TALKED to. I love it when people TALK to me. In fact, I love talking, but I love listening even more. I guess I'm still just not ready. But I don't want to hurt him and it would kill me to lose his friendship. =[
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